Monday, September 24, 2007

Facing a loss

Many, many, long years ago my algebra teacher told me that really good things must be struggled for. He was referring to understanding algebra, but I have found this applies to many other things in life as well.

The theft of a work bag containing my moleskine nearly filled sketches, notes, resources, book titles and hours of contemplation on the Bead Journal project and the partially finished July and September pages has left me stunned. I miss my old moleskine journal; it truly feels as though part of myself has been taken. Thank God, the June page which is worked in nearly solid in mostly #15 beads was in another bag and so was left unharmed.

This past weekend I was finally able to contemplate bead journaling again without a feeling of loss or bitterness. I finished my elephant's body and have finally started a new moleskine. And today I worked up the courage to make this blog entry.

One treasured item that is gone is a red prayer flag from Nepal which I kept tucked in the moleskine pocket. It was a great inspiration. Today, online I found a photo of a La Tho in Tibet taken back in 1936. This will be my new inspiration for the new July page.

September was "mankind's family tree" . I had learned to make little polymer faces to use on it. I am not sure if the new September will be worked this way or not.


KV said...

I can feel your disappointment and sense of loss from your post; your words made me feel sad simply reading it. All things happen for a reason, though (sounds trite, but is so, so true) . . . perhaps your newfound photo will be the inspiration for many things to come, great and small.

Wishing you smiles,

Kathy V in NM

Robin said...

Oh, Dorris, this is so sad... many would be devastated by such a loss. But I see that you have picked your stunned self up, dusted off the bitterness, and faced your replacement pages with determination. With great admiration, I wish you success with your new inspiration. Thanks for sharing the link. Big hugs, Robin

abeadlady said...

I hate to think of you losing all that work. Not just the beading, but your journal, etc. Keep your chin up and keep beading. You never know what is around the corner.

Nospoj said...

Comisserations on your loss but I do admire your determination to "soldier on"!
We BJP Members are sure made of 'the right stuff'!

Trilly said...

Dorris, my heart goes out to you. The loss of a journal and your projects is truly difficult. I am so glad you are starting again and I admire the strength in letting go of the bitterness and feeling of loss. Zen Hugs.

Sue in western WA said...

Oh, I'm so sorry for your loss! I hope future bead journal pages will help to heal the pain.

Aurora said...

oh my! you sure have my sympathy! once my studio was broken in o and the thieves took--all my paint brushes and my whole bead collection! all my beads I had saved since the 60's--I was heart broken--do take time to grieve your loss...and a hug to you.